I find I'm missing a lot of things today...and am decidedly melancholy, though I crack jokes about it. [wtf?]
I miss my cats.
I miss eating without feeling guilty & being crazy-mindfucked.
I miss the house in san diego.
I miss my old job.
I miss being able to sleep...like a normal person.
I miss the weight of a man's body on mine.
I miss not feeling afraid.


I have to go back to work in about a half hour or so. (I worked 8-4, and have a "mandatory" staff meeting @ 6...grr...)

Considering the fact that gas is $4.30 per gallon here & also the fact that my car- bless his little...engine...-only gets 18 miles to the gallon, I probably should have just stayed there & not driven home, but I had to get out of there. They're all crazy.

I adopted an elm tree the other day- a siberian elm, to be exact. However, I live in zone 9-10, where it's ridiculously hot, and being semi-tarded bought seeds online...seeds which will sprout and become a zone FOUR tree, meaning it's used to snow, extreme cold, etc.

However, what I've read about them gives me the impression that these trees are remarkably resilient and quick to adapt- as quick as a learning curve for a tree could possibly be.

I have faith in my little seedling, and I've named it David.

*update: the meeting wasn't as bad as I thought...'cept I almost rolled my car on the way home, way too sharp of a turn, scared the crap outta me!